If you are new around here, 11 months ago I was in a car accident that had my car so banged up it collapsed upon itself and suffered from a concussion that did a number on me – more about it here. And oh yes there is an update. I’ve been looking at photos before the accident and right after. What I’ve come to realize is if the car accident didn’t happen and didn’t stop me physically from running forward, I would’ve ran my health right into the ground, because quite simply I was doing way too much on my own. So now, nearly 11 months later real talk there are some things that just haven’t returned to normalcy and some that I’ve found a new normal that I thought I’d share:
My concussion nearly 1 year later
– I sometimes get scared, while driving my kids, because I have a mental flash of what happened right before or during the accident.
It happens less often now, but if I don’t have to drive, I won’t.
– I JUST started watching tv – kind of – again.
Here’s the thing, I can’t watch tv and do something else. It won’t work for me. I also can’t watch anything on my phone or tv about an hour before I sleep, so you know I love tiktok but it has to stop earlier for me. My brain won’t shut off. I have to read at night and listen to calm music.
– If I’m focused, I’m very focused like a laser which is good, but interruptions are really hard for me.
Any interruption like a call, text, sound even is really amplified. It’s not that I can’t regain focus, it’s like I feel lost on what to do next.
– My handwriting looks totally different.
It’s like I cannot write in a straight line!
– My moods have stabilized a lot thank GOD
Though I think a lot of that also has to do with the craziness of Covid and feeling untethered in many ways. I still react very emotionally at times, which is hard for me especially in instances I wouldn’t otherwise.
– My multitasking is way back.
I can shift gears fast, but I’m finding that time blocking, which is something I was really good at before is now a reality once again.
– My anxiety ebbs and flows, but is better mostly.
A lot of that has to do with QEMP CBD and trying to list to my body to determine triggers which is a challenge at times.
– I need more self care and alone time than ever before.
I don’t know if this is a reaction from Covid or the concussion but I’m going to go with both.
– My creativity is back and stronger than ever, which makes me heart feel full.
The thing I’ve learned is that I’m resilient and stronger than I give myself credit for at times. It’s also helped me to communicate when I’m feeling overwhelmed in situations that I would’ve handled better or differently a year ago. Each day is anew and each day is an opportunity to grow stronger than before.
Ps without Eddie, my new normal just wouldn’t even be.
Till next time !
P